Do as i say not as what has been done haha

my little broskie is 15 (ahhh) he's a freshman in high school... a sports stud and and all around boy so what does that mean... he is into girls and my cheerleaders are into him (yikes) when we where younger we def. did not get along (sorry mama) i hated him he hated me and it sort of in a weird way worked ... people always told me it was just a phase and we soon would be friends and i politely smiled and said what i really thought in my head. but unfortunately they where right haha just joking ... fortunately they where right. don't get me wrong he still drives me nuts daily but now instead of being disgusted by his presence i enjoy hanging out with him. like i said earlier he is getting into girls and their def. getting into him... but im on a mission... he will not be a punk that i myself have had multiple experiences with or i might kill em (joking) i also dont want him to be run over by girls because i know we can be brutal but i just don't see the point in him becoming the kinda guy girls love to hate and hate to love ... he can be confident yet humble... studly yet coy... manly yet sensitive. just tonight i was getting all my stuff from my ex and putting it in a box/ reading old letters, looking at old pictures. he didn't say anything just saw i was bumming and came and say next to me ... and then started playing a game on my itouch... now im 99% sure he was just there for the game but the act brought a happy tear to my eye- REFRESHING... i like that we can finally be like this  i can give advice and still play like a teenager if i feel like it and not be judged haha ... 5 years ago if you asked me if i would be getting ready to snuggle into bed and watch a movie with my little brother i probably would have laughed at you ... thank god times have changed :)

 

advice to whoever reads this: love your blood... and take deep breaths when you have a younger sibling remember you were where they are once too <3

The game... bleh!!!

alright being single now... i forgot the rules of the stupid game... im not saying im playing it or trying too but the thought still occurred to me... 
why do we have to play it? the passive aggressive, coy, hard to get annoyance that starts any relationship :/ my last relationship didn't have any of that THANK GOD! he was in basic for the air force and well there really wasn't time to be stupid and mess around we just where and it worked out for a long while... but thats over now, and im so afraid imma have to be thrown into this world that i so hate haha... that sounds so dramatic haha but i guess i don't like it because i suck at playing it?? ... when i know i want something i go and get it (or try my hardest) ...so if i want you... then i want you!!! haha if my decision is made its MADE... i guess that throws of todays way off thinking though oops! haha i hate having to seem like im not interested if i am or not talk for a couple days to build up anticipation for when we finally do get to talk or acting like  you haven't been on my mind 24/7 since apparently i haven't been on yours... or have i and your pretending as well... seriously? how is this a good foundation to start a relationship? lol i LOVE adventure and this to me is adventure that part that isn't is the constant waiting and wondering ... in my life if im curious about something (anything) i ask, hunt, search, and ultimately find out ... but this little sticky situations puts me back in my seat and leaves me helplessly curious... my best friend and hungarian sister use to say how fun and freeing would it be if we went up to some one and said "your cute im cute... lets date" ok i know thats really crazy ... but the concept still stands... why not just go for it... where do you ever get if you hold back... maybe we won't work out ... but at least we tried and experienced and didn't waste time not talking or hanging out because were making the desire for one another stronger? ... lame excuse if you ask me haha 
but thats just my opinion haha :/ 
p.s im not speaking about anyone specific so no worries haha















i thought this picture is so cute... its a penguin couple haha the zoo caption said its how they pick their mate <3 lol