"Once" by Rascal Flatts with lyrics

Music is the window to the .... soul?!?!

i kinda really really love music... ALL types.. truly! i always have if you really know me then you know me as always singing some song to myself or to anyone who listens. i think listening to different types of genres stretches you as a person and makes you more well rounded haha... cheesy? anyways... i relate moments in my life big or small to songs (also smells..weird) when i hear a song it triggers my memory bank and i am immediately back to what i was doing, experiencing at that moment... also another weird fact- all the boys i've ever liked or dated have a song related to them... for no particular reason and they aren't mean songs haha but its true if you ask me i can tell you... cuz their all so random... ok back on topic- i think knowing the kinda music a person likes truly is knowing them... so since im a crazy roller-coaster it makes sense how i like EVERYTHING.... 
if you know me recently you know i just went through a break-up :/ (it happens) but that fact sparked the idea for this post... theres a song by rascal flatts- once (thank you alesi) that literally sings out my current situation, thoughts, feelings, emotions... do i get depressed when i hear it NOPE... its a calming feeling listening in song what your feeling inside... i LOVE it!!! 
i love rap music because 1.its fun 2. i love to workout to it and 3. if their a good rapper then they use beautiful beats and speak more to me then the actual words... the way the notes hit the soul is the best feeling in the world... alright i sound way artsy fartsy haha but truly .... i can't drive with no music on and im not ashamed to admit i perform concerts in my car regularly... music is a mood changer (good or bad) a silence filler a workout partner and  a way to meet people on a deeper level to me... and i love it oh so much 
here is the current song that im in love with and if you want me to perform it too you hitch a ride with me haha
(the video will be on the next blog post above :) )

we are the 2 best friends that anyone could have...

im currently adventuring with my bestfriend... object of your adventure... find free internet to do homework... but 1st we had to fill our tummies (you can't focus when your hungry) so we went to BJ's and had yummy-ness... then we went on a trek but we kept failing.. and somehow offending? people around us... we can't help it that were genuinely happy people that like to laugh so both places we went in search of left us free internet-less and old grumpy people thinking we were so RUDE for having a good time...

i love the word best friend... and i have alot... i know people don't believe that its possible to truly have multiple best friends but i do... TRULY ... this one in particular is more ... shes adopted into my crazy life... and shes stuck Aunty toto and i are past the fake-ness of surface friendships and into the nitty gritty of loving each other and calling each other out on our $#*! ...  the kinda friend where you never pay back money cuz it all evens out in the end... the kind where no words need to be spoken and you know what the other is thinking... maybe it is impossible for other people to have these kinda friendships in multiples but i do and i love it... 

whos way is the right way? i vote... um god?

i went to a new church on sunday.. and i really had no idea of what to expect... i've been raised in the church my WHOLE life and lived as a pastors kid (oh the joy haha) sitting in the service i could truly feel the presence of god... in a real and non cheesy way! (isn't that the whole point) i think of myself as a realist who thinks black and white on most things. and my faith is def. one of those things... i have so many questions swarming around my head... i know some denominations believe that the "gifts of the spirit" are still alive and used today and other don't... who's right? why is it that there are so many denominations when we should all be worshiping the same god? i feel like in this day and age people get caught up in "titles" and "rules" and "protocol" when shouldn't it be about your individual relationship with your creator?? i hate being in a service and have the feeling like im being judged or watched for the way i worship... singing worship has always been the way i feel the closest to god the music and the lyrics hit me and stick in my crazy brain better then any sermon.... for some people its other aspects of the service... why is that wrong? everyone wants to be right and have the best church or youth outreach or the best whatever... where in the bible it says thats how you get to heaven ... it shouldn't be a competition it should again be a relation... how are you as a person reaching the people around you and beyond to share the love you feel? i grew up in the church i went to a christian school from jr .high and on and i never really was taught that part of  "religion" i did get really good at finding any book in the bible in under 15 sec. don't get me wrong im not trying to bash what i was brought up in, in any way it helped mold me into who i am today ... but i guess my real question is ... how do the people of 2010 truly LIVE JESUS? it shouldn't be about who is the best at what... or know the most about something ... it should be about idk JESUS? just a thought ... i sound like im standing on a soap box haha ... but i guess i really am frustrated about this issue i know who i love and serve and im tired of being told that because i don't go to this kinda church or i don't do this kinda ministry then im not REALLY a believer the church that i go to with my family has a motto and it is everywhere.. LIVE JESUS... and at first i thought of it kinda um cheesy? (sorry matt haha) but im starting to realize the honest in your face simple meaning behind it... ok im done :)


p.s my kitten leila has been attacking my hands the whole time i type this... she apparently wants some attention 

Rainy days... and nephews

today was a day i got to watch my littlest nephew for a little and then take him to preschool... 
i just love my boys, i love to sit back and watch them interact with each other and watch their personalities show. Gavy i watched from the time he was born for almost 6 months everyday.. he was my son and i loved it (except for being told all the time how bad people felt bad for me for being a teen mom :/) the ocean cooley and gavito are sooo different yet act exactly the same at certain moments. watching their imaginations flourish  is the best free entertainment. this morning the munchkin was very adamant on picking out the best outfit and the best beanie ... watching him strut himself to class like a big boy made me so excited for the time i get to experience that with my own child (trust me not ANY time soon) ... thank god for nephews truly their the 2 boys that will NEVER break my heart or make me sad... i hope one day they understand how much i love and cherish them <3

outfit of choice: black turtle island shirt jeans black hightop vans, red quicksilver zip-up and his teal and brown stripped DC beanie :)

Live.. Love... Learn

the last year... its been an adventure!!! and never knew really quite what i was doing except i knew what i felt and i went with it... 
i LOVED i LIVED and i most importantly LEARNED... i hate when people say they regret things... i don't think that should be a reaction to life's circumstances- thats just unproductive!!! :p but truly even the worst of situations a person is faced with there is always the opportunity to learn the smallest lesson and appreciate it! do i maybe wish i made some different decisions- perhaps but doesn't everyone??.. especially me because rarely do i give a thought more then 2 seconds of my time before making it happen (keeps my life interesting :) ) but on a serious note: do i miss ... everyday do i still love.. of course (it was real) do i still tear up... hello Im a girl! do i sometimes wanna hit rewind and pretend nothing changed.. who wouldn't .... but!!! thats not realistic i have to accept, respect, and live! who knows where i'll be in sometime ... honestly who knows where i'll be tomorrow my life changes constantly and at 20 almost 21 (1 month!!! ) Im learning to go with it and continue to stay true to myself so that no one can speak a negative word against me that is legit <3


every experience should be: enjoyed reflected remembered documented and played out to the fullest!!!  if you hold back that is where regret would come into play and like i said that is just not productive! 

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HOMECOMING (24 hrs of stress)

homecoming pep rally is always a fun stressful event... when i cheered and now even more so now that i coach... but i love it and in the end its always lovely.. my girls def. had the odds against them going into this performance in particular but like always they pulled it out and where amazing if you went to the school you would think it was just cheerleaders attended because this year we have 4 teams from babies up to high school and they are adorable 

being a coach gives you a whole new perspective on life... i think i could compare it to when parents say to their children .. they'll understand when their parents .... well it has come full circle and i understand... im privileged to coach under my coach from high school... were able to converse about the antics i pulled as a cheerleader under her and my new outlook and understanding ... no matter what i've been faced with doing this it always ends up rewarding ... its a passion not a job and i love it <3

hola..

I kinda have been wanting to make one of these for a long time... but just never have so i decided today would be the day..
i guess what im looking for to happen with this blog is to share and explore with my own thoughts and anyone else's ... if the name of my blog threw you off.. they are simply the 2 things i don't live with out 1. vente green ice tea (unsweetened) from starbucks 2. insulin- if i don't wanna get sick and die i need it haha
im not sure what will be talked about since my brain runs as fast as an olympic sprinter but at least you know its all real and not fake haha ... so enjoy?
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