why does everyones purpose in life have to come after they achieve a piece a paper costing hundreds of thousands of dollars in a frame on a wall... after they have sat so many hours and been taught things their supposed to believe , understand, follow... is that wrong? nope for many it works out and yet for many very close to myself they do all that their supposed too and that very expensive paper continues to sit in a frame on a wall in their house while they work a job ... that is just a job, a paycheck, a 9-5 while they let adventure slip away. I was told my whole life to find a career that i love so so much and am passionate about- but can i have both 1. a stable income 2. and real passion for my trade .. i have no idea. back story- i suck at school honestly and truly i'd much rather learn biology english anything else in the field actually doing it not being tested on things i was too distracted to study the night before and having to read stories i could care less about and will forget. where are you learning passion in those?? where are you learning about being adventurous? i have always loved the IDEA of school and loved to pretend i was an A student when i was little... i wore glasses so people believed it easily but truth it is ... it was a constant battle with myself my parents and teachers give me a problem i will solve it give me a cheer routine i will make it better in any way i can. have me study for a test- no happening so easily. do people around me know how to handle this? not so much ... is it their fault? i don't want to say it is... people are so so different why do only the ones who have a paper framed on a wall get looked at i bet they can't tell you detailed directions to a place that they've only been to once (i can) i bet they can't make an amazing meal and make you feel like family (my mom can) some say the non-paper framed people just haven't worked as hard... i call bluff i have two parents who have worked their little bootys off everyday
do i think it is fun to play college? sure do i wish i was like my friends going away and doing their thing? most days yes ...
but then i am where i am right now laying in my bed @ 2 am listening to music and just finishing up a convo with my best friend who had a real issue they needed to talk through and i was there ... i was available i helped i listened i loved i comforted ... these moments are why i don't regret i wanna be apart of something amazing some adventure like no other .... with or without a paper framed on my wall
