so todays joy time came from people who make me smile from the inside out... i'll give a little background... their my hawaiian sisters: cousin's, aunty, uncle, and tutu (grandma) .... but I'm their "pretty much" cousin ha ha their also related to my ex boyfriend but thats another story... this family is ever so welcoming to me and never makes me feel like a guest sometimes unfortunately ha ha joking! when alesi and i got close naturally i would go over and hangout... then i started dating one of tutu's grandkids so even more naturally i went over to give her updates on his life ect. ... but then like lots of things we ended and one of my greatest sadness's from it was the fear that this family wouldn't love me the same WRONG! they loved me before and they loved me after... hours pass when were hanging out and it seems like minutes whether were all watching our fav. movie Despicable Me or playing games or playing music or clowning on usually ME ... its to relaxing and comforting ... its a treat for me to go over there and i thank my sis every time because her family feels more at home to me then some of my own...
I love that family isn't solely based on blood... but instead love and community! that's how i have always been raised and because of that i have more siblings then my mother gave birth too... but i love them all exactly the same. Family is so important having that net of people to hold you and love on you and keep you in check...
Even though i am only in day 4 of this challenge to myself i am noticing a semi change-ish nothing drastic but im starting to notice the definite little things in life that actually make me smile from the inside out (JOY) like tonight when i beat a 5th grader at speed 9 out of 10 times and was really proud about it .... or when i got a big bear tutu hug and kiss before i left to my house those little things that sometimes we move to fast to take to heart that really do make you JOYFUL
thank you lord for these moments
<3
this is chynna fa' the little lady with a big middle name ... love you mamas <3
mmm yup i like this one!!!
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