i went to a new church on sunday.. and i really had no idea of what to expect... i've been raised in the church my WHOLE life and lived as a pastors kid (oh the joy haha) sitting in the service i could truly feel the presence of god... in a real and non cheesy way! (isn't that the whole point) i think of myself as a realist who thinks black and white on most things. and my faith is def. one of those things... i have so many questions swarming around my head... i know some denominations believe that the "gifts of the spirit" are still alive and used today and other don't... who's right? why is it that there are so many denominations when we should all be worshiping the same god? i feel like in this day and age people get caught up in "titles" and "rules" and "protocol" when shouldn't it be about your individual relationship with your creator?? i hate being in a service and have the feeling like im being judged or watched for the way i worship... singing worship has always been the way i feel the closest to god the music and the lyrics hit me and stick in my crazy brain better then any sermon.... for some people its other aspects of the service... why is that wrong? everyone wants to be right and have the best church or youth outreach or the best whatever... where in the bible it says thats how you get to heaven ... it shouldn't be a competition it should again be a relation... how are you as a person reaching the people around you and beyond to share the love you feel? i grew up in the church i went to a christian school from jr .high and on and i never really was taught that part of "religion" i did get really good at finding any book in the bible in under 15 sec. don't get me wrong im not trying to bash what i was brought up in, in any way it helped mold me into who i am today ... but i guess my real question is ... how do the people of 2010 truly LIVE JESUS? it shouldn't be about who is the best at what... or know the most about something ... it should be about idk JESUS? just a thought ... i sound like im standing on a soap box haha ... but i guess i really am frustrated about this issue i know who i love and serve and im tired of being told that because i don't go to this kinda church or i don't do this kinda ministry then im not REALLY a believer the church that i go to with my family has a motto and it is everywhere.. LIVE JESUS... and at first i thought of it kinda um cheesy? (sorry matt haha) but im starting to realize the honest in your face simple meaning behind it... ok im done :)
p.s my kitten leila has been attacking my hands the whole time i type this... she apparently wants some attention
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