Day 12- Last Cheer Comp.

so today was actually kinda sad... i wasn't gonna let myself cry and i held off for a long while until coach T had me close in prayer before we broke after the comp and the tears came... :/ later in the night we stayed for an acro. and tumbling comp. between azusa and oregon which was so sick!!! they girls amazed me left and right i am def. hooked and stoked to see this sport grow!
the Joy came from the whole day... seeing a lady (tina blankenship) and all the girls she has impacted through cheerleading.. many have coached under her after graduating or continued to collegiate cheer... she raises such well rounded women i am so glad to be able to say she has influenced me. it not only was my last cheer comp. as a coach for now but also hers... after 7 years of coaching at tri-city she is deciding to move back to kentucky its gonna be weird to think of tri-city without her but like all good things they will come to an end sometime... i hope one day she full understands what she means to so many girls i love her so much

Day 11- I hate all things CAR related

after work today i desperately needed to get my oil changed... so i went to walmart who graciously told me it would be about 40 minutes... re-life translation i figured and hour... WRONG... anyways i went inside walmart walked around a little and realized there wasn't anything interesting so i decided to use my time wisely... i got a good gossip magazine and a wedding magazing ( research for my bff's wedding) and then went on the hunt for a chair to sit in cuz my feet hurt like a mother... i coulnd't find any so the next best thing an exercise bike that had a back rest PRAISE JESUS! i proceeded to sit for a good hour and read through my magazines while on-lookers took double takes (it was a display bike on a stage) and continued their shopping it was so beautiful to let my mind relax and run for a little minute and be able to sit for a little .... not have any rush to be anywhere and have the harmonic sounds of walmart shoppers all around me while i escaped!
lame part of the day ... they took almost 2 hrs :( and i almost fell asleep in the un-compfy chairs they have to wait in at the auto center oh well :)
Free and simple JOys... defnitely one of the best kinds

Day 10- Running Running Running..

i use to always run outside in my neighborhood... and i was addicted but then my anxiety kicked and i swore i was gonna get stolen so i talked myself out of it ... bad plan! haha
i have a gym membership and i like it for the convenience but theres nothing compared to running in the fresh air... its such a better run! harder but better haha .... i drank a red gatorade before i left so i could get my blood sugar up a little (its a diabetes thing lol) and while i was running i would spit out mucus i was coughing up (no biggie happens all the time) but this time because of the gatorade... i was spitting what looked like blood haha .... i think i scared some people but i guess no one cared enough to actually stop and ask just stare at me... so thank you random bystanders who gave me amusement you made my coughing run so much better haha <3

Day 9- Open Gym

all i need to say is Open Gym and the people who feel the same joy i do on this night know where im going with this and i don't need to write anymore cuz mainly i don't wanna call out things im not ready to end yet haha

Day 8- Sister time

lets make this quick and simple...
- yummy food
- compfy sweats
- new episode of teen mom
- the bestest sister friend around
pretty much sums up the calmest- needed kinda joy...
<3

i swear we love each other haha

Day 7- thank you for the tip

so i just recently got a job at a drive thru coffee place by my house... if you know me at all then you would know that i use to absolutely hate coffee if grossed me out! but a couple months back i just got a craving to try it so i did and soon after i was hooked... it gives my the feeling my adhd medicine does without making me feel like im on drugs haha anyways.... this job is super chill yet stressful because its all about speed and making drinks perfectly but im trying non the less haha .... well yesterday (yes im writing this a day late ) i was working the register and a regular customer came through ... he ordered his drink and gave me his punch card and money i rang him up and then realized he had a free drink because he had enough punches.... so i sheepishly apologized and told him he could save it and use it next time but he said "nope i wanna use it now" then i got confused because he handed me $5 ... so i did what i needed to do to get his money back and when i went to hand it back his face was bright red and like usual i was confused so i tried to give him his money back but he said " no that is for you" i still didn't really get it haha because i never pick up on these sort of things so i confussingly put the money in my tip jar and in that moment all made sense and i was now embarrassed.... this young marine was trying to be sweet and sly and smooth and i killed ever ounce of game he was trying to play i didn't know what to say except "ahhh im sorry you where trying to be nice and i just killed it i apologize" my boss on the other hand was crying from laughter and i was all tongue tied... lesson learned for sure haha anyways it made me laugh and the people around me def. laughed and that is JOY right you don't wanna keep it to yourself you wanna share it and infect everyone around you with it... mission accomplished ha!
FUN TIMES AT BLACK ROCK <3

Day 6- Autism= an un-common joy

so superbowl day before the game actually started i was over at my sisters house her husband was on his way home from a week long trip for work and she was def. at her wits end! so while she gave herself a time-out i decided to have some aunty time with my munchkins..... nothing too crazy because i was so tired so we just went out front and attempted to ride scooters but neither boy was really feeling it they actually just wanted to sit with me in the drive-way.... my nolan ocean is autistic and its beautifully challenging! i praise god daily for his parents and the AMAZING job they do with him because its def. not an easy one. but i can't imagine that boy any other way he is so unique and independent and lovey and snuggly and strong and smart and focussed and handsome and i could just kiss his cheeks all day.... his language comes and goes as he chooses and sunday was no exception he didn't feel like talking so he didn't instead there was so much laughter and un-distinguishable noises coming out of his mouth ... its such a peak into his little brain and i could watch for hours.... he was loving his aunty that day and gave me kiss after kiss after hug ... seeing this boy live in his own world that he allows a select few to enter is so intriguing to me he doesn't know social norms or how things "should" be he is 7 and does what he feels and thinks at any given moment without fearing the consequences for himself or others.... sometimes i envy him everyone thinks things they wish they had the guts to say or do ... and my ocean cooley just does it.... somedays when i let my mind run i wonder what the world would be like if people where actually transparent EVERYONE what you saw is what you got.... i wonder how we would function. does my baby have challenges DAILY is he aware of them not likely he knows what he knows and shares what he feels he needs to share and that is it nothing more or less... his smile could make any person forget any sorrow they have for only a moment and it turned out i needed his smile more then ever that day.... he is definitely my angel that i thank god for every time he says "hello aunty"